Wednesday, 31 December 2014

Download 'Crossroad Magazine' onto Your Phone

If you are looking for words on a page that are strong enough to bring you inside a writer’s mind then Crossroad Magazine is what you are looking for. It takes a lot to get, much less amuse, our mind. That said, the first issue of the magazine won’t frustrate you. It packs in an alluring array of inspiring reading.

You can download it from Buqo. Here's how to download Crossroad Magazine on your Android or iPhone.

For Android, just follow these steps:

1. Download the Buqo App.
2. Choose ‘Magazine’ for the category (left of search bar), then type ‘Crossroad’ on the search bar.
3. Click on the Crossroad Magazine icon.
4. Click Preview, then Buy
5. Choose your payment option.
6. Enjoy reading!

For an issue that you download, you donate Php 10 to Tahanan Sta. Luisa, a crisis-intervention centre for abused streetgirls.



Tuesday, 30 December 2014

Year 2014

Year 2014 for me and my friends is the year of finding our real selves, our real talents, our strengths, our real goals, our extraordinariness. It is a year when we have observed the local government agencies as we have made petition to their honesty and sincerity. We have seen the face of bribery and its compelling power, how money has worked and papered over injustice, and how so subtly unfair and corrupt some government officials have been despite our struggle to carry out justice successfully. We have observed how people are unwilling to help because ours has had no political weight and can't be used to threaten any political name.

Some of my friends have been mocked at some government agencies. We have observed how some lawyers of our foes do not want us to settle immediately because the case is such an argosy of money. A situation that has taught us a great lesson: one's sincerity these days is based on money. We have observed the sluggish system of getting closer to the justice pursued by all of us.

Year 2014 is the year in which we look forward to having justice and equality and fairness for us all. It is a year when our foes have tried to keep their evil pride safe and alive. It is a year of struggling to make their evil pride immaculate and irreproachable through money. It is the year of doing everything to justify their series of wrong actions that have led to a complex case of injustice before us, their allies, and God.

Year 2014 is a year of telling the truth while our foes have tried to fabricate the truth. God bless us all and may he enlighten our foes and the people who handle our cases.



Monday, 29 December 2014

On the missing AirAsia Indonesia flight QZ8501

I hope in 2015 and beyond authorities should take better actions to ensure passengers' safety. For one, it is alarming to see a number of aeroplanes which have gone missing this year. I think there's something behind all that - I might be wrong but the chances of losing such a big object are very very small. If they can track a nail with satellites two metres underground, how come they cannot find an aeroplane?

Prayers for the passengers of the missing aeroplane and their families.



Sunday, 28 December 2014

Andres Bonifacio: The Real First President of RP

Every Filipino need watch 'Bonifacio: Ang Unang Pangulo.' It is a film that is marked by truth. It furnishes knowledge to the young generation to have thorough and historical acquaintance with the first president of the Philippines with utter certainty. I think the people behind this film are very brilliant. They deserve all the awards this country has. The MMFF has got the best film of the century.

The future is full of wisdom and intellectuality. So even how distorted our history is now, how twisted out it is of the true meaning and proportion, the future will always give justice to what is right, what is moral, what is just, what is real. See, despite the powerful conspiracy of Aguinaldo and his political bedfellows, the now is time to point out the truth. So now the truth is getting clear by timely disclosure.

The DepEd and CHED have to print new books on Philippine history to set it right, recognising Andres Bonifacio as the real first president of this country. He is the father of the Revolution, and so then he is the first president. Emilio Aguinaldo, a traitor, should have a place in history as a foe of true democracy. His presence in history should serve as an instructive example that being a traitor has no place in any history sooner or later.








Stick Bread

Stick Bread is an Ilonggo-style bread stick. It is a good pasalubong (fairing) for friends after making a visit in Iloilo City. This Stick Bread is available at malls and shops. The bread has light milky taste. It's nice to dip it into coffee while eating. It doesn't lose freshness easily.







Friday, 26 December 2014

On Corruption 2014

an essay by Roger B Rueda

Any political campaign can only be honest and unpretentious when it goes through the lowest branches of the government agencies. For instance, this maxim ‘kung walang corrupt, walang mahirap’ will remain a meaningless one because no matter how the national government wants to effect the whole government to be corruption-free when  the lower branch of a government agency consists of corrupt people, nothing will follow on: corruption will just get worse instead. That means the president should not trust in them downright. He needs to scrutinise things by himself. He needs to listen to the common people who are directly treated unfairly by these government officials. A website on corruption should be provided, to get wind of their real problems and concerns. Secretaries or undersecretaries of all government agencies should meet people of the region to confer with them, to warrant that no government official in the local level can put their issue out of sight.  That is if this government is really serious about stopping all corruptions in the government. But it seems the eradication of nationwide corruption is just a show, all make-believe, a promotion of favourable image.

A review of the cases handled by NLRC for say the last 15 years can be a gauge to see if indeed corruption doesn’t exist in this agency of the government. A special group of honest lawyers can be commissioned to determine how labour cases have been decided upon by lower NLRC and how possible the arbiters have been bought off. This basis of corruption cannot just be ignored, because this is the only way the cleansing of the local NLRC can be done and put them back to order. I’m sure injustice submerged the rights of thousands of Filipinos in one-sidedness and inequality. But no one will do this because only the just government can do it and will do it. All that we can do is imbibe the maxim ‘kung walang corrupt, walang mahirap.’

Almost a year has rolled by since the Typhoon Haiyan whipped some places in the Visayas. Isn’t it disquieting to see on TV that thousands of them do not have respectable housing yet, even with aids from both local and overseas donors? What has taken them so long to provide them housings? This simply establishes how dishonest aside from being useless some people in the government are? And no one can stop them, because even the president himself cannot do something about it. All he can say to them is ‘kung walang corrupt, walang mahirap,’ an idea all the corrupt bureaucrats mock and sneer at – and the poor become poorer as a consequence of this inability of our government to stop corruption, the cause of all inequality and poverty in this country. Soon when this administration is over, I will reminisce about the beauty of the saw, the promise it undertook, the dishonesty it bore in 2010 because it was like a star promised to a gullible lover, who is personified by the illiterate and trusting voters. A lesson to a new administration that they shouldn’t promise something they cannot carry out for the sake of winning the election. A lesson to the voters that anyone cannot be trusted especially when someone promises the eradication of corruption this country.

The most disappointing corruption is on food given to the victims of typhoons. Of late, some people complained they had only received a kilo or two of rice while in some places they got four. This unfair distribution of rice is very annoying: a great deal of rice was unloaded into dumpsites because they turned bitter and unfit to eat; some ready-to-eat food has expired in the warehouses. How come the NFA did it? What can the government say about it? With this, all the NFA officials, I believe, deserve to be sacked. This can only happen when nobody complains about food shortage in this country, when hunger is no longer a concern in our society.

And the BIR. I believe this agency cannot heed any complaints not related to the political foes of this administration. Once we went and saw the officials of this agency in Iloilo City and they promised us to sue the tax evader, but until now the case has not been filed. But look: anything that is related to the Binays is intervened by this agency, as if it really wanted to save this country from the horrible tax evasion concern. Its commissioner seems very active in hunting the tax evaders, who if they didn’t have political colour could just be as unbound and unrestricted as they’d never be poked around. Any political cases filed against anyone can be realistic if cases without political colour are focussed on, too. Well, what can you say about this, President Aquino? I think you need to send your representative or Atty Henares here in Iloilo City, or else I will think you are not serious about what you promised in 2010.

‘Kung walang corrupt, walang mahirap’ is imaginable when all the regional offices, provincial offices, and municipal offices of the government agencies have faith in it, when they are directed and monitored by the national government at random or thoroughly.

Well, every region, every province, every city, every town is a kingdom. To stop corruption, the president needs to visit all the kingdoms or send his undisclosed emissaries. He can’t just rely on the papers submitted by the traitors around him. He can’t just be self-assured. He needs to meet the common people at random.

2016 is near and soon the maxim will be weighed up and honoured or scorned.

Saturday, 13 December 2014

Bonsai/Bonsai

Bonsai
a poem by Edith L Tiempo

All that I love
I fold over once
And once again
And keep in a box
Or a slit in a hollow post
Or in my shoe.

All that I love?

Why, yes, but for the moment ---
And for all time, both.
Something that folds and keeps easy,
Son’s note or Dad’s one gaudy tie,
A roto picture of a young queen,
A blue Indian shawl, even
A money bill.

It’s utter sublimation
A feat, this heart’s control
Moment to moment
To scale all love down
To a cupped hand’s size,

Till seashells are broken pieces
From God’s own bright teeth.
And life and love are real
Things you can run and
Breathless hand over
To the merest child.



***

Bosai
Binalaybay ni Edith L Tiempo
Ginlubad sa Hiligaynon ni Roger B Rueda

Tanan nga akon ginahigugma
Ginapiod ko sang isa ka beses
Kag isa ka beses pa gid
Kag ginatago sa isa ka kahon,
Ukon sa gihay sang gwab nga haligi
Ukon sa akon sapatos.

Tanan nga akon ginahigugma?
Ngaa, huo, sa subong ---
Kag sa tanan nga tinion, duha.
Mga butang nga madali piuron kag ipa-ipli,
Sulat sang Anak kag maduagon nga kurbata ni Papa
Daan nga litrato sang isa ka bata nga reyna,
Asul nga ablay halin sa India, bisan pa
Kwarta nga papel.

Isa ka bug-os nga pagkaputli,
Makatilingala ang ikasarang sang kasingkasing
Sa kada malip-ot nga tinion
Nga pagamayon ang tanan nga paghigugma
Kag ipaigo sa hakop sang kamot.

Tubtob nga ang mga olokaba mga buka nga boo
Gikan sa mga nagasidlak nga ngipon sang Dios.
Kag ang paghigugma kag kabuhi mga matuod
Nga butang nga pwede mo nga idalagan kag
Nagahangos ipanubli
Sa pinakapayaon nga bata.

Monday, 8 December 2014

Kindness/Kabuot

Kindness
a poem by Naomi Shihab Nye

Before you know what kindness really is
you must lose things,
feel the future dissolve in a moment
like salt in a weakened broth.
What you held in your hand,
what you counted and carefully saved,
all this must go so you know
how desolate the landscape can be
between the regions of kindness.
How you ride and ride
thinking the bus will never stop,
the passengers eating maize and chicken
will stare out the window forever.
Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness,
you must travel where the Indian in a white poncho
lies dead by the side of the road.
You must see how this could be you,
how he too was someone
who journeyed through the night with plans
and the simple breath that kept him alive.
Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice
catches the thread of all sorrows
and you see the size of the cloth.
Then it is only kindness that makes sense anymore,
only kindness that ties your shoes
and sends you out into the day to mail letters and purchase bread,
only kindness that raises its head
from the crowd of the world to say
it is I you have been looking for,
and then goes with you everywhere
like a shadow or a friend.


Kabuot
binalaybay ni Naomi Shihab Nye
ginlubad sa Hiligaynon ni Roger B Rueda

Bag-o mo mabal-an kun ano gid ang matuod nga kabuot
kinahanglan mo nga madulaan sang mga butang,
mabatyagan nga ang buwas nagakatunaw sing hinali
kasubong sang asin sa naglas-ay nga sabaw.
Ano ang ginkaptan sang imo kamot,
ano ang gin-isip kag mahinalungon mo nga ginkinot,
tanan ini kinahanglan nga magpalayo para mabal-an mo
kun ano kasubo ang kalaparon
sa tunga sang mga kahilitan sang kabuot.
Kun paano ka magsakay nga magsakay
nga sa hunahuna mo indi magdulog ang bus tubtub sa katubtuban,
ang mga sumalakay nagakaon sang mais kag manok
nagalantaw sa gwa sang bintana sing dalayon.
Bago mo mabal-an ang kalolo nga kasangkul sang kabuot
kinahanglan mo nga magpanglaguyaw kun sa diin ang Bombay nga nagasuksok sang puti nga poncho
nagahayang sa kilid sang dalan.
Kinahanglan mo nga mahangpan nga pwede ikaw ini
nga sia isa man katinuga
nga nagapanglakaton sa tunga sang gab-i kaupod ang katuyoan
kag bunayag nga ginhawa nga nagabuhi sa iya.
Bag-o mo mabal-an nga ang kabuot pinakamadalom nga butang sa alibutud
kinahanglan mo mabal-an nga ang kasubo iba nga pinakamadalom nga bagay.
Kinahanglan mo magbugtaw kaupod ang kasubo.
Kinahanglan mo nga estoryahon ini tubtub madakop
sang imo tingug ang hilo sang mga kasubo
kag mahangpan mo ang kadakuon sang henero.
Amo palang ina mangin mapuslanon ang kabuot,
kabuot lang ang nagahigot sang imo sapatos
kag nagapagwa sa imo sa adlaw para maghulog sang mga sulat kag magbakal sang tinapay,
kabuot lang ang mag-alsa sang iya ulo
sa sulumbali sang kalibutan kag maghambal
ako ang imo ginapangita,
kag dayon maupod sa imo sa tanan nga hilit
nga daw isa ka landong ukon abyan.

Sunday, 7 December 2014

First Sex

a poem by Roger B Rueda

I hugged his leg tightly to my chest. His leg hairs like thin threads were tickling
my cheeks and lips,
his hands pushing my head off from him.
I moved his underwear
strap from his waist
towards the tops of his legs
with my teeth.
His penis like bubble gum touched me
on my clam-like lips which were ready
to close together to swallow
it as he put it
into my mouth, it getting
firm and more
difficult to bend and he
having a masturbatory
fantasy, I felt it was a golden
opportunity.
In a sudden paroxysm, it burst
a salty flavour.
I ate it the way I eat raw oyster,
thinking
lucky me. Then, we undressed and got
into the bath. I washed
his penis with
Safeguard, its bubbles falling
into his hands.
I licked his lips, cheeks, ears,
neck, and nipples,
he on bended knee and we
showering together.
Then he stabbed at me
with his penis.
I was bleeding, he sploshing water into
my flesh wound, the wound
which made me feel
a sense of freedom and baptism.
He kissed me on the mouth
and whispered
I love you in my ear, I was crying for
the pain in my bottom.
In a sudden paroxysm,
it burst whitish lotion
which I gently rubbed in.
Then we hurried back to school,
we put on
clothes,me taking up my bag
with my Grade Five
workbooks and he his folders and class records.

Friday, 5 December 2014

A Read for Breakfast

an essay by Roger B Rueda

‘Breakfast’is a poem, which has in a way enkindled me to write more poems, something that is tangible and lifelike but whose effect is analytical and unbounded. I happened to read the poem in Philippine Panorama and later in Mantala, an anthology of Philippine Literature edited by Dr Leoncio Deriada, where my two poems appear, too. It is by an Ilonggo poet Alain Russ Dimzon, a friend of mine since 1997 when I was a sophomore mass comm student.  His brand of writing is one of the best so far amongst the Filipino poets I’ve ever read.  An influence to me, he leaves the door open to secretive experiences of a mystical, existential nature. The characters he creates sometimes enter imaginary worlds of equal importance to the real world. He combines ingenuousness and sharp intellect with great understanding of the importance of the imaginings. And I think ‘Breakfast’ is one – a fiction poem.

Dimzon is a realist, and perhaps a feminist. His poems are in the vein of the poems published in The New Yorker.  They are integrational, wisdom-oriented, and improvisational beyond concepts of settlements in ever-changing situational simulacrum. (The other poems of Dimzon, which I like, are ‘The Timekeeper’ and ‘A Rain Scene,’ which won him First Prize in a Home Life Poetry Contest.)

‘Breakfast’ is so simple, but its effects are very multifaceted to a mind – to my mind then, even till now, I’ve realised. The utterance is easy, so lucid at first.  It is a subtle poem, yet it contains an elusive level of contradiction. It is the compression of intensely felt experience into the sound waves of poetry and the decompression of intense experience through the catharsis of poetry by a son who grew up deprived of a father and still longing perhaps to be with his father.

Breakfast here is very figurative, as it is eaten in the early part of the day.It offers a timeline, an inception. It is like his childhood, untimely and wet behind the ears. I think the reading of this poemis inexpressibly poignant.A cry inside me broke from me, as the poem starts soft and melancholy.

There is an intellectual energy and daring in this work, as the faint misery of his mother is the main point of the poem. Her virtue confined to her being a Christian, perhaps, and a natural monogamous, is hidden starting from that very first breakfast and at every breakfast that comes next.

His telling the father that he still owns the seat at the table tells his and his mother’s deep sense of humility – a signal to the father to forget about his pride and shame.

The grandson in the crib lets slip how so kind a son he is. Being a good son to his mother is his first priority, as he is still hoping to keep the family his mother has set her heart on.  It is saving the matrimony and the family both his mother and he himself are keen on to hold their fire. Thus, perhaps, he can’t leave his mother though he has a younger brother to take care of her.  And it shows how everlasting fatherhood is.

The poem is given space to take breaths, and the small details – the tiny symbols, the deft word choices, and the slenderness of the lines – give the poem a quality of care and taste that is enviable. Its narrow lines, too, are enough to make the reading discoveries fresh as readers plough through the entire poem.

Anyway, here is the poem:


Breakfast
for Father

One morning
when the family
ate breakfast
you were not there
on your seat
at the table
The night before
through my blanket
I saw you
slap Mother
She was sobbing now
as she drank
her glass of milk
and bottlefed
my youngest brother
I hurried
on my boiled egg
to be in time
for my Grade Two Class
(The years
doused our anger
in the pool
of our tears)

You may come
and eat breakfast
with us again
You still own
your seat
at the table
You can sip
your black coffee
and read
your newspaper
while my son
your first grandchild
is babbling
inhis crib



Monday, 1 December 2014

A Read Before You Get Soaked Standing Out in the Rain

by Roger B Rueda

‘A Rain Scene’ is another poem by Alain Russ Dimzon which I like very much. The poem won First Place in the Home Life Poetry Contest in 1999. That year my fellow Generoso Opulencia at the 41st UP National Writer Workshop got the Second Place for his poem ‘Regarding Flowers from La Trinidad.’ ‘Paper Boat’ by Ulysses Aparece got the Third Place,’ so ‘A Rain Scene’ had to face stiff competition for the First Place as the shortlisted poems that year were very agreeable and illuminating, making poetry a vicarious form of social life and human predicament and delectation. I am sure it was difficult for the judges to vacillate on them. If I had been one of the judges then, my preference and taste would have been ‘A Rain Scene,’ too.

Dimzon’s poem is striking with slim splits and text cataloguing. It is artfully light, yet it is very deep – it is not easy to get to the bottom of it in the beginning. It seems it is saying no more than the literal truth, for it had, as if t was a taxi, a thick perspex partition between the passenger (the reader) and the driver (the poet). The reader has to go over the simplicity of the poem, then he/she can start taking wing to the world of feminism and womanhood or impoverishment or social inequality or whatsoever.

There seems a contradiction between its form and connotations.It is his way, inventive and cognisant as he is, of compressing a weighty and thoughtful material into a compact poem.His style is slick and visually artless, moving me,so my great idea starts with it as it simplifies the complex.

It gives an admirably succinct account of a woman fish peddler, a mother who will do everything for her children and a widow/a single mother who has to take care of her children by herself despite her implicit feebleness and lack of education. She is left with trials and tribulations of everyday life, taken unawares when her husband died. It shows how Filipino women in the countryside or coastal areas need empowerment to be able to be more spirited and prolific, in control and clever, fearless and impervious when their husbands die or leave them for whatever reason.

It signals the need of the government to pass laws that safeguard widows and give them resources to support their families. It points out how single mothers in the Philippines are ignored because how treacherous the weather is, they have to work to feed their children, for even the basics of support cannot be given by the government, so poor widows need to go from house to house to sell their fish/vegetables/wares by nightfall. They need to bear their poverty and inattention by authorities, in solitude, though we’ve known now how the pork barrel of some legislators has been plundered by depraved government people.Was the government money used as it should be and in all conscience, no Filipino would suffer from extreme poverty, no Filipino would become down-and-out.

The widow persona in the poem is a very strong and brave woman. She ignores the blast of the roofs though it drowns her voice as she yells out. Perhaps, she chooses not to beg because she doesn’t want to be an object of pity amongst other people and her neighbours. Perhaps, she wants to meet their needs indefinitely without degrading her pride and self-respect.Perhaps, she wants to put her foot down despite bad nature and adversity, for her love for all her children is unconditional. And perhaps to her, the only all-enduring and selfless love is that of a mother for her children. The reader can only speculate the consciousness of the widow fish peddler because the poet presents the poem like a painting or a photograph – everything can be worked out through a scene, graphic and peripheral, physical and definite, cynical and plain. The effect of the poem is purely analytical and then that is the time when emotion comes in.

The woman is ‘isang-kahig-isang-tuka’ (one scratch of foot in the ground, one peck at a grain) as she hurries, tracing the neighbourhood alleys. Thus, she needs to work even if she doesn’t feel well or even if the rain is about to bucket down. When a strong typhoon like Yolanda comes, her family can be trapped by hunger for days or weeks. This is the consequence, too, of having a lot of children and when a husband dies, no one but the wife will have to shoulder all the responsibility of the deceased husband. Worst, the husband has not taken out insurance on his life, covering payment for his children’s food and education. It shows the plight of Filipino families struggling for survival because the government is unresponsive and inattentive. It doesn’t give communities means of support.

The poem works like fireworks to me. It burns attractively to the different levels of my imaginings, revealing different designs and shades of colours and delight in the obscurity of my intelligence and common sense. Its simplicity is illusory because it lights in my mind with varied insights and social and non-physical involvement or connexion.

I told you then when I reviewed Dimzon’s ‘Breakfast’ that he is a feminist, because of the number of poems he has written on women. The focal point for him is the women who are under social circumstances and how they delimit themselves mechanically(like the carabao in my poem ‘Carabaohood’) or imperceptibly  or unthinkingly and how they give away/fight out for their rights.

Its word-based arrangement is very accurate, forming enigmatic formulary for such a thought and awareness, so it is inspiring and perceptible to me who loves poems similar to those published in The New Yorker.  Dimzon is one of the rare poets in this country whose philosophy is very forward-thinking and artistically new.

Anyway, here is ‘A Rain Scene’:

A Rain Scene
by Alain Russ Dimzon

Under a sky
That is ripped
By lightning
And is about
To cry,
The woman
Fish peddler
Mounts a basket
On her head.

On her head
She bears
The fish
And the tonnage
Of a lost husband
And the lives
Of her children.

Yelling
With a voice
Drowned
By the blast
Of the roofs,
She hurries,
Tracing
The neighbourhood alleys.